53. You broke my trust

- What did you do?! Ilari storms into Susanna's Salon. - What did you say to her?! 

– Oh. Hi, Susanna looks surprised seeing Ilari there.

– What. The. Fuck. Did. You. Do! Ilari growls. 

– I messed up, Susanna knows excatly what Ilari means. 

He's angry and his knuckles are almost white and that little muscle in his jaw is ticking. She doesn't remember him being this angry for years. - I'm sorry! 

– Sorry? Sorry! If I lose her because of you I… Ilari swallows rest of his angry words. – Being sorry isn't enough! 

– I already tried to text her but got no answer, Susanna says and her lower lip is shaking. – I didn't mean no harm! 

– Sure. But you did. She doesn't trust me anymore. 

– I know. It's my fault. Susanna sobs. -I thought you and Iiro were playing and I warned Venla about how you used to be.

- Fuck! 

– I shoud’ve talk to you before doing that.

 – And you told her about us, Ilari shouts. – I trusted you! 

– You can still count on me. 

– Pretty hard after that. It's tough job even forgive this backstabbing you did. 

– I didn’t think it was a big deal, Susanna replies and looks surprised 

– You don’t believe in being with one person only. Venla isn't like that. .Neither am I. So it does matter. She thinks I’m some sort of player now. You better make her understand since she's not listening to me anymore

- Ilari. I'm sorry. 

- I don't need you to comfort me anymore. I’ll handle my own bad days myself from now on. 

-Ilari, please. 

– You broke my trust. That's final.

Venla pokes her cupcake around the plate and hasn't even tasted it. Tanja has been talking non stop for an hour or so. It's all about Antti. Antti this, Antti that. Venla is happy for Tanja, but hopes she would shut it down for a moment. Venla hasn't been able to give a word between Tanja's enthusiasted talk. Susanna has been bombing her with texts for days but somehow Venla doesn’t want to share her heart with Susanna. Not when she learned they have something going on with Ilari. It feels so unfair. Some people get it all. 

-…and then he just took me in front of the basin when I was brushing my teeth, Tanja whispers and her cheeks are bright red. – I nearly chocked into my tootbrush. 

- Um, what? Venla wokes up from her thoughts. -He did that? Venla gasps and then giggles. – My my girl. You really had a wild weekend! 

 - I'm so sore all over, Tanja winks her eye. – In a good way. 

– Are you going to see him again? 

- He's sleeping in my bed right now, Tanja chuckles. – So yes. He wants to meet Tessa too, but I'm not ready for that yet. We just got over some old things and I really really try to avoid making another rushed decisions with my life. 

- Sounds good, Venla smiles. 

– I don't want to mess this up, Tanja says and starts again.