65. Can't brain now

- Did you heard inquisition visited me today? Venla gets back to her game after letting Ilari in.

– Christ. I'm sorry, Ilari says. – I never guessed she would go so out of hand. 

– Ms. Hurskainen was worse, Venla shakes her head and puts headgear on. – Felt like they were really testing me. Whatever it was, I didn't pass. 

- I'm so sorry. 

– Not your fault. 

Ilari watches Venla playing. She has fast reflexes, and she's very accurate. 

- You're fast, Ilari has to admit. 

- Thanks. 

- You want to try that for real? 

- Hmm? Venla is concentrated on the game. 

– Shooting, Ilari says. - With real gun.

 - Could be fun, Venla mumbles. 

- Have you ever tried? 

- Couple times, but it was ages ago. 

– Some old boyfriend took you to the range? Ilari thinks. Venla makes amused sound. 

- Like I would have had a boyfriend back then. No. We were with dad. 

– We? 

– Me and Ronja. He thought girls should learn to defend themselves. 

– With guns? Ilari's eyebrows rise. 

– Any means necessary, Venla shrugs – Ronja is so hardboiled by now I wouldn’t mess with her. Ilari remembers the said sister. It was very clear she was experienced in martial arts.

– And you? Ilari gets curious.

- There's only limited things you can do with a broken body, Venla replies. Ilari is quiet for a while. Then he reaches out to touch Venla's hair. 

- I can think many things you could do with that body, broken or not. Venla turns to face him and that playful little smile.

– and that would be…? Venla puts her headgear away.

– Come here and I'll show you.

- I want you. I want to feel you, Ilari mumbles to Venla’s ear and continues to nibble her neck. His hands opens straps of her jeans overall and start to push it downward.

– Uh… This came so quickly Venla’s head is spinning. The mutual attraction is there, the want but... 

Ilari tugs his shirt off and Venla gulps and bites her lip. He looks so good it should be illegal. Ilari wastes no time and Venla is soon released from her top and pushed to the floor. His mouth lands on her breast and Venla gasps at feeling of his wet tongue.

– Ilari, she whimpers. - Ilari, no. 

– Huh? 

– Stop. Venla pleas and Ilari rises to stare her in disbelieve. 

- What? 

– I don’t want this, she manages to say. 

– Huh? Why? I don’t get it? 

– It’s too soon? Venla babbles. 

- Too. Soon. Ilari repeats and stares at her. - Too soon?

– It’s not I wouldn’t want it, but I’m just scared and in pain. Ilari rolls over and pinches bridge of his nose. 

– Ok. Ok. He says slowly and tries to gather himself and his selfcontrol. He’s silent for long time and Venla is sure she ruined everything. 

– We can take it slow if that makes you feel better, he finally says. 

- I’m just afraid that the usual thing happens, Venla sighes. 

– What’s that? 

– That I end up being a fucktoy and forgotten when something better comes up.

- Do you really think I would do so? Ilari sounds irritated. 

–No, but I didn’t think it would happen before either. 

- Right. I thought we trusted each other? Now he sounds hurt. 

– I do trust you, Venla is apologetic. – I just… I hope for once this would be a real thing. I'm afraid everything changes and I’m worried about pain..

– Well. If it’s up to me I’m here to stay, Ilari sighes. He gives Venla a long and tender kiss. – I can wait, but... Touch me, He asks, takes Venla’s hand into his and places it inside of his boxers. – Don’t let me hanging like this?

Ilari stares at the roof without actually looking anything. 

– Hello? Venla calls him from distance 

– Can’t brain now, he mumbles and that makes Venla laugh. 

- So I take that as a yes. 

- Hmm, yes to what? He blinks. 

– I asked did you like it? 

– Ah. Like is an understatement, he pushes his torso up to face her. He really didn’t expect to get a happy ending, but Venla surprised and her warm wet mouth really finished him. – Thank you. 

– You looked liked you really needed it, Venla smiled to him. 

– Guess you are right. Ilari smirks and kisses her.- You are amazing. I never expected it. 

– I didn’t expect to do it either. It just happened but ended up liking it. She says. 

It was something that just popped into her mind when she saw how Ilari reacted to her touch, how his body trembled and she wanted to see it further. It was like that dominant streak melted away from him and she held the keys to control him. Venla didn’t know it could excited her that much. 

- You liked it? Ilari looks stunned. 

- Can you brain now? Venla teases him. 

– Give me a break. Can you think when you have just cum? 

- Mmhm? Venla nods. 

- Nevermind then, Ilari mumbles.

– I want to make one thing clear. I do want you but I just didn’t want to go all way now, Venla explains. – There’s too much pain that I could really concentrate or relax. Ok? 

– Perfectly fine.

- And don't push me like that anymore.