S2 20. I'm going to miss you

- Good morning! Venla smiles from kitchen and pours fresh coffee to Ilari's mug.

- Morning, he mumbles pulling his shirt on. He has just come from shower after his morning run. - What have you...?

- Thought I could get out of bed around same time as you and have breakfast together for a change, Venla explains. - So I made that when you came back in.

- You made bacon and sausages? Ilari looks what she did.

- I wanted to treat you, Venla says softly. This is a way for her to tell him how she feels, how much he meant to her. 

- What did I do to get woman like you? Ilari kisses Venla. - You're a doll. This is great!

And it's enough for now. 

- I’m going to Säkylä next week to check the places and looking for a new house, Ilari says. 

– House? You are planning to get a house? Venla stutters. 

– It is probably going to be my station for a long time, Ilari ponders. - So why not make the stay more comfortable. 

- Probably true. Venla nods. – Do you want more bacon? 

- Mm, please! Ilari gets it before Venla can get up and gives her a sheepish look. – You really know how to do it. I could stuff myself with this for all eternity. 

Venla chuckles and feels pleased. 

– At least I manage to do something right. 

Ilari frowns. 

– Give yourself a break, woman. Baby steps, literally. He knows immediately what’s eating Venla. 

– It’s so slow! 

– Patience now. Patience. You couldn’t take even those some weeks ago so it’s progress. See, you haven’t used crutches on two days now. 

– You’re right, I guess. Venla sighs. 

– So. To spare you from stress and possible falling down Jesse is going to get Lucky for the time.

– You have already thought this thru? Venla is suprised.

 – Basic strategy, he shrugs and helps himself to his second serving of bacon. 

Venla turns on her bed, touches the pillow at her side. It’s cold. Ilari hasn’t been sleeping there for two nights. The bed feels so big and empty. First she had troubles to learn to sleep with another person, now she has troubles when the said person is away. 

She can’t understand why Ilari is shutting her away from his life. Things he have said are in controverse on what he does. Or then, Venla takes a big sigh, she has fallen to that same old trap again and plays role of placeholder before he finds something better.

Venla reaches for Ilari’s pillow and hugs it, inhales his scent from it. 

- I’m going to miss him terribly, she whispers. Her wandering eyes see Lucky’s green rubber hedgehog and she sighs. 

– I’m going to miss you too.